Friday, May 9, 2014

realisation my life is mediocre and im going to blog about it

dealing w
 - loss of identity and communication
 - being made redundant at work as job is outsourced to wog dimitri
 - unable to relate to parents despite graduating from hs
 - unable to deal w conflict even in movies
 - being allergic to dry shampoo
 - realising how cool my friend is when talking to her boyfriend

 - loss of identity and communication
after losing both my wallet and phone at once I have realised how much I depended on those in my drifting existence at uni. life is hard when you don't have a student card with a concession sticker on it, when you can't drive bc you don't have your license and when you're going to have to start collecting stamps on your subway card all over again and you don't have the card of the lady who did your piercing so she can retire your piercing. its outrageous that you have to pay for concession when you lose it and im wondering why spent 70$ on a co-op card. I feel like I have to start over again, this similar to finishing your report and realizing you didn't save it.
 - made redundant
I only got rostered on for 4 days of work this month. I know this is normal for most people, especially those that work at popular chains stores like noggin, but I work at amway and it's a steady job with steady shifts. the new wog guy dimitri has a lot of shifts though. I like to blame it on him even though its probably just a mistake. im scared that they're calling me asking me to come in right now and I can't respond bc I don't have my phone
 - parents
mum thinks that all beef noodle soups are pho. I corrected her like 5 times today whilst dad quizzed me on what I would do in the james packer situation. I said let him pay 500 and let him go but I also pointed out that what we were eating wasn't pho but very weak broth and noodles.
5 minutes later my dad refers to our lovely meal tonight as pho and I correct him, only to have him look confused and say 'what? didn't you say this was called pho?' whilst my mum goes on unrelated tirade about how difficult cooking this was (no) and we should eat it anyway (we did)
no one listens to me in my family
 - conflict
today on the bus i was sitting at the front where I was in prime position to view the most uncomfortable situation, where nobody involved gave a single fuck, so much that I was scared of being dehumanized.

the bus driver stopped at a popular stop where a queue had already formed. before opening the door he yells that the bus had reached full capacity so he could only take on two more passengers.
the man at the front of the queue immediately hops on whilst the rest of the queue were still reacting. another man sitting at the front of the bus tells him 'mate, let the woman with the baby get on'. unconcernedly, the man disregards this suggestion and plays with his phone. the man aggressively demands 'mate, get off the bus'. no response.
meanwhile, the crowd had dissipated with a woman and a man arguing with the bus driver. the woman has a bunch of coins in a fist thrust towards the bus driver, and she's insisting the bus driver take her on. the bus driver raised his hands 'i don't care alright, just decide between you two'
and in the moment that she glanced towards the man, he shoved his mymulti in the bus drivers face and got it signed. she started arguing with the man, and turned around for support 'can you believe this guy' and the person sitting at the front replied with  'i honestly don't care, get off the ****ing bus'
the women storms out, exclaiming 'god bless you...' and then adding a sharp 'you ****ing *****'

The man with the mymulti spins around 'what did you say,  *****' and makes a move to go after her

whilst i shrunk into my seat and got ready to leap off the bus if they actually started a beef over a spot on the bus.

what happened to chivalry?  what happened to empathy? what the fuck did i just witness and why was it necessary?

 - dry shampoo
can confirm it works and does not smell like cookies, but rather powdered bleach and i feel like my skin is getting hives

 - my friend, who i spent her 11th birthday party with watching family guy in her room, who is unforgiving when she is angry and obviously intelligent, the only one of us who would pursue higher education even if Australia was not equipped with university institutions, is a badass and her boyfriend who playroles Switzerland for fun is a pretty top bloke too