Mostly i cringe whenever HSC or the future is mentioned because I'm still in denial that those things exist and are looming in the distance.
I have a sneaking suspicion whenever someone talks about their plan in life to do med they are all part of this cult that I got excluded from in year seven, where they pledge to be loyal to med. No ok maybe they don't actually say med in italics and maybe im just making that up. But then last night, at 1am, when i was tossing awake from the anxiety and guilt of not studying (also i could hear sirens in the distance ) i started thinking of my worse case scenarios:
a bitter 40something who takes it out on others
Filled with regret
Am unhappy with my job
Balding
Arrested
Has a problem with drinking or drugs
in my little barely conscious moments my mind started drifting towards the nicer aspects of the future
an apartment somewhere in the city
in a building where the elevator works
hopefully with a nice view from the balcony
Thats the grand plan. The Australian Dream.
ive been born and raised in total suburbia, i'd like to move out into the big city when im older *insert nevershoutnever! quote
I hate gardening and i hate slugs ew. green nauseous slimey things yuck. I might miss the quiet life and the smell of fresh lawn clippings, but I think a latte in the morning might be just as nice. I will enjoy even more the subtle new smell of a department store, so calming.
It will also be good to walk to a chinese food place when i have food cravings at night. those asian convenience stoers that are open 24/7 in the city? you can buy cold cans of imported, coconut/taro/lychee/sunflower tea flavoured drinks, and popsicles made from soybeans, grass jelly and brown sugar. also i like eating at asian noodle places when i am sad LOL.
e.g. BALI, NEW ZEALAND (yes very exotic lol i know), TAHITI and then other places : MANHATTAN, BROOKLYN, PARIS
Yes I will travel to those places but i can't imagine actually staying and settling there. Will i holiday to the city then, when i feel like change?
Hmmm.
the future is uncertain and I am young. que sera sera
I have a sneaking suspicion whenever someone talks about their plan in life to do med they are all part of this cult that I got excluded from in year seven, where they pledge to be loyal to med. No ok maybe they don't actually say med in italics and maybe im just making that up. But then last night, at 1am, when i was tossing awake from the anxiety and guilt of not studying (also i could hear sirens in the distance ) i started thinking of my worse case scenarios:
a bitter 40something who takes it out on others
Filled with regret
Am unhappy with my job
Balding
Arrested
Has a problem with drinking or drugs
in my little barely conscious moments my mind started drifting towards the nicer aspects of the future
an apartment somewhere in the city
in a building where the elevator works
hopefully with a nice view from the balcony
Thats the grand plan. The Australian Dream.
ive been born and raised in total suburbia, i'd like to move out into the big city when im older *insert nevershoutnever! quote
I hate gardening and i hate slugs ew. green nauseous slimey things yuck. I might miss the quiet life and the smell of fresh lawn clippings, but I think a latte in the morning might be just as nice. I will enjoy even more the subtle new smell of a department store, so calming.
It will also be good to walk to a chinese food place when i have food cravings at night. those asian convenience stoers that are open 24/7 in the city? you can buy cold cans of imported, coconut/taro/lychee/sunflower tea flavoured drinks, and popsicles made from soybeans, grass jelly and brown sugar. also i like eating at asian noodle places when i am sad LOL.
- random but i was drinking aloe one day and read the ingredients: grape flavouring & honey. THERE IS NO ALOE IN ALOE VERA DRINKS. just like the taro mochi with no taro and the crabsticks that have no crab! It's outrageous! *insert thats outrageous! quote but it tastes soo good idec
e.g. BALI, NEW ZEALAND (yes very exotic lol i know), TAHITI and then other places : MANHATTAN, BROOKLYN, PARIS
Yes I will travel to those places but i can't imagine actually staying and settling there. Will i holiday to the city then, when i feel like change?
Hmmm.
the future is uncertain and I am young. que sera sera
