I wish&wish I had an older sister. I just read my sisters keeper and now I'm craving more so I scroll down my blogroll and wow. so many posts on their big sisters, getting engaged, making homemade body scrubs in a jar. I had an argument on the bus about being an only child vs having siblings and i realise besides having an extra room there's really no plus sides. Cos I don't have parents like britney in daria ,I don't get spoiled and lavished with gifts because there's only one of me. OH yeah I've been watching daria alot and she's a big sis. All these sisters
Last weekend I got angry at my parents because they just left me to 'eat an egg' or something. they were wherever they were and they rang me up and was like, 'remember to eat dinner and finish homework' and i was like, what dinner?? i bus'd to eastwood AT NIGHT, thinking about darkness and predators, but determined to eat some nice korean bbq'd ribs in a rebel without a cause moment
do you see how this scenario would be different if I had an older sis? instead of my parents deciding everything because theres two of them and they are a team, my sister and i could fill the place with girl-foods like avocadoes and turkish apple iced tea (or if i knew how to cook, if my mum buys mi goreng by the box instead of individually...)
I just found a really good blog written by a younger sibling and I have to admit I read every single post on that blog. I feel really sad now, I keep thinking about the things I'm missing out on, like having sister outings to the movies and grabbing burgers afterwards, not having lonely family outings because you will have your big sis there, having a sister tell me THE FACTS OF LIFE like 'don't ever put gummy lollies into your jelly cups' because she and her friends soak gummy lollies in alcohol sometimes so she knows they're super absorbent and will go soggy in the jelly mix, battling boxing day sales with her big sis, sharing wardrobes..
It is something that is forever out of my reach :( it's not one of those IF YOU WANT IT THEN MAKE IT YOUR GOAL TO GET IT because it's IMPOSSIBLE and something i have missed out on entirely.
hmm i realise i should just befriend an older uni student or get my nice aunt who's only 25 but getting married to move here from samoa. im sure she'll like it better here. but she'll have to bring her husband, awks. i don't know if it's just me but i think 25 is pretty young to get married.
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